Autumn Musings

31st March 2023 Written by Dvonne Loring

Yesterday I shifted gears in a very intentional way

I had a client appointment in the morning

I stopped by my local library to pick up a book reserved for me and I walked away with an additional three books after perusing the shelves

I returned home where I ate some lunch, away from screens

I parked myself on the deck in my backyard that catches the afternoon sun and chose one of the books to begin reading

I felt tired so I placed the book down, rolled on my side and closed my eyes

I didn’t fall asleep, but I was drinking in the slowed relaxation this offered me

I then picked up my phone to respond to those who’d gotten in contact with me

It was now late arvo

I did a little more work

I tended to some life errands that I’d been procrastinating on for months. That felt good

Then I picked up another one of my books that was chosen to support one of my growing interests - long term financial planning management

I was feeling incredibly accomplished

As the day turned to evening, I decided to spend my time in the kitchen, cooking and preparing food while Spotify took me on a journey

I served myself a bowl of deliciousness, put on my lamps in the lounge room to set the mood while I ate and watched an episode

Only one episode

I retired to my bedroom

Usually I’d put on Spotify again and journal on my laptop but I chose to scrap the music and go old school and journal with pen on paper

As the final touch to my day, I continued reading the book I began earlier in the day, on the deck outside before putting it down and drifting off to sleep

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I share this day because prior to this, I didn’t realise I’d become so wound up, like a ballerina in a music box

I didn’t realise how distracted I had become recently

How I hadn’t been creating time for the spaciousness I need to not only tend to my life but also enjoy the things I love

How interrupted my presence had become

Yesterday felt fucking nourshingly delicious because the intention I brought to each activity I did snapped me out of the auto pilot that had glazed over me

Interestingly, in the slowed spaciousness, I was incredibly productive and felt good while doing it

This has been such a welcomed reminder that how we approach our responsibilities, work, tasks, chores, errands etc has great influence on how we experience them

When I’m in get-shit-done mode, if I make it to the end of the to do’s (which in reality is rarely) I’m often spent. I’m done. Exhausted. Wired. Likely with a tension headache. And I end up drowning myself with tv or my phone to compensate

Yesterday, I felt warmed by the end of the night by how I chose to move through my day differently to how I have been recently

The irony is, by slowing down to allow myself to be more present, I spent less time zoning out and inadvertently spent more time doing

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With Autumn now well and truly upon us for those in the southern hemisphere, this has been a deeply welcomed and necessary invitation to begin that transition to slow down and turn inward for me

After the last six months of expansive change and novel exploration, I feel somewhere deep within that I’m ready for this

To ground, re-centre and reconnect

To reflect on the experiences I was met with during Spring and Summer

To discern which of those experiences I want to metabolise into my being and distill

And which to let go of that won't serve who I am or marry with my integrity

This is an important time of re-calibration

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Let me leave you with this -

“Just slow things down and it becomes more beautiful” - poetically said by David Lynch

Gift yourself this opportunity

Otherwise you might miss it all

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