2024 - The Year That Was

16th December 2024 Written by Dvonne Loring

This year witnessed one of my darkest night’s of the soul and the most powerful rise of the phoenix my life has ever seen

I found out where my childhood losses still live and breathe deeply in my being

Where my needs were despairingly destitute and unfulfilled

Where historic pain remains raw and unhealed

I discovered the torment of just how needy, bereft, and forlorn I was and what behaviour that compelled in me

It was harrowingly humbling

I knew I had a choice - to run or to stay

I didn’t want to stay

But I chose not to run

A wise part knew that if I avoided what I was being beckoned into, I could thwart any real sense of healing and repair that I needed

And so for an intentional 8 months, I marked a line in the sand and declared -

“I am the priority”

I drew earnest boundaries and I was ruthless with my No to allow the undoing that was upon me

My process wasn’t convenient for those around me

I wasn’t available in ways I normally am or would like to be

I let people down, I disappointed people I care about

I met the propensity of shame that would’ve shattered every mirror to avoid seeing itself... myself

It was hard... but not through force

It was hard through the initial overwhelm from an inflamed nervous system, to then the painstakingly empty found in the s l o w

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During this undertaking, I immersed myself in the Eclectica container - a three month journey connecting with raw feminine power through embodied dance and sisterhood 

I was embellished with my strength in a time I felt hopelessly weak

I was pouring myself into that container even though I had nothing to give but it was filling me up and nourishing me

I connected with myself as both the nurturing mumma and leader of the 20 women I journeyed with

I connected with the Warrior Within

Then life took me on my wildest adventure - Burning Man

After eight months cocooned in a healing portal, I emerged out of what was a suspended reality where I was tending to myself, fraught with malaise and transmuting what was marred into medicine 

I arrived on the playa, marking an astute resurrection 

Since then my life has exploded with inexorable depth and breadth

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They say going through is the quickest way

I now understand that in ways I hadn’t before

I’m bewildered at how far I’ve come in such a short period of time

By choosing to stay, instead of running, a remembering dawned upon me

Truth, slowly, eventually found me, again

It was both clarifying and purifying at the same time

It is drawing me into myself and my life with unparalleled levels of authenticity

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Darlings, December is upon us

The end of 2024 is here

Many people arrive at this time of year huffing and puffing from the year that was

Some can feel a pang of disappointment that what was hoped for wasn’t actualised

What has this year meant to you? 

What beautiful or tragic part of humanity met you?  

How can this year be another page in the story of who you are and your becoming?

And how can this draw you even more passionately into the life you are creating?

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If you’d like to make meaning of your experience, your pain, your heartache or hurt in a way that offers you clarity, inspiration and peace, I have 1:1 coaching spots opening up early 2025

Begin your year with a commitment to yourself

Learn how to love and honour yourself

And create, live and enjoy a life from that place

Get in touch with me to learn more about the coaching packages that are available here

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To my community - 

Thank you for being here

Thank you for being my witness, and enabling me to be yours

Thank you for trusting me and allowing me to hold you

I look forward to the service, connection, Love and possibility next year will bring

With warmth from my heart to yours 

xx